Money

When you lose everything you enter a phase where nothing matters.

Well of course your health matters, friends family and community matters. 

But you enter a reality where the things that matter most are things you cannot replace. You soon realise the photographs you have accumulated over the years and  heirlooms and special items in the cupboard or private drawer , paintings or other art pieces and silly little bits and pieces you have added to amongst the clutter are all gone.

It is hard to look at photos that are stuck together , books that are smudged and crinkled and dirty never to be read again . 

It's just hard to look at those things .

You have to rely on memories that reside in your mind alone as you cope with these rare losses.

Initially you don't care about money. It doesn't matter anymore. It's prominence fades fast.

As time passes money creeps back in to the daily life of fun , fixing up, food  and financial hardship.

When you have never asked for anything in your life and have the ability to use resources to solve problems and overcome challenges ,it is so hard to accept gifts and minor financial help to tide you through.

You have to do it .After a disaster the climb back to normal is too hard and a major obstacle.

My give a little page was a help but their is a long way to go. Somehow I will find a way to survive and return to some sort of reality.